hey.. been thinking this few hours... thinking about the past... the sweet and sour of my life.. just like my blog says... hmmm... i'm blooging my thought because no one will want to listen to my story at this time...hmmm... last year... on the 6 april... the malay dancer was out...competing for SYF.. and so we only went back to class during GYS... growing years series... since aisha wanted to sit beside nas.. so farhan had to sit beside me.. that was when we got to know each other... we started talking by then.... i called him a'an.. then the next few days, razmy started a rumours.. saying that farhan likes me.. and i was no.. but at the same time, i fall for him... but i keep on denying it.. one day, he ask for my number...we start talking to each other... and then.. on the 19 april.. we played truth or dare... he was dared to stead with me for a day... and i was told to be nice with him.. so ya...i did.. and the at night.. around 7.. he called my house...and sound me stead... i told him.. i need some time...to think about it.. the next day... at 7.11 i was attched to him... but i was thinking that it will not last long... only a few months.. he thought of that too... the first few month was horrible.. we didn't have a smooth start.. i was ignoring him.. and he was ignoring me.. so both were ignoring each other.... and then came rumours... saying that i wanted to be single so that i could flirts with other guys freely... that is so not true.. and he actually believe what that guy said.... and at that moment when he called...i lost my wallet.. and i was crying.. and i was hoping that he would actually.. console me.. but he was scolding me... i nearly scold him a badword... but i control myself.. and then he ask me why i was crying.. i told him that.. than after that, he ask me to relax.. then at night.. he ask me about the flirting thing./.. i said.. i didn't... and he said ok.. but in a way, he wanted to break with me.. but since he was lazy, he didn't ask for it... time flies... and things starts to get better... we started knowing each other... that's when the love grows... he started to really get close... started knowing each others background...about the past.. and many other things.. that even my friends doesn't know... when love grows, i fall in love with him... he was my mr right... i was overwhelmed with joy.. i treasure him.. i trust him 100%.. without doubt... he started holding hands.. move to hugging.. then kissing.... i enjoyed every moment of it.. that was when i realised that i was born not only to fulfilled my parents dream.. i was also born to love.. and after so long, we nearly break... because...there was a third party... she nearly...steal my happiness away.. the happiness that all my friends envied... i dun mind people envying me.. but all i need is him in my life... starting from that day, he lost my trust.. even if it's not his fault... but the trust faded away.. i know that without trust.. things would get wrong.. but i tried to stay in place.. control my ego... so that i could be with him.. but he need to get his trust back.. just like the way it happen when i lied to him.. i was a small lie.. i wanted to put down the phone by saying that i wanna sleep.. hmmm.. after that day, i was easily fume with anger.. i started to scold him even if it's a small mistake.. coz i'm afarid that things will happen the second time.. and now.. i'm thinking... wat will actually happened if we were to broke up...
