Monday, February 12, 2007
i think im having fever..i was standing in the open just now..it was raining btw...i just had to...so that no one knows im crying...reuter..im sorry..but i cried again..im confused right now..so confused...i dunno what to do actually..both the stories are the same..but it both have different meaning..and i dunno who to believe..i believe kak liza as i've known her ever since im in sec 1..i believe in ijad coz he's quite sensible when he tell me somethings..i ask lin about it..lin told me to just take iot between me and ijad..not other people..and since he told me eveything about it already..and i think that it does make sense..i believe him..but haiz..i dunno la..i cried when he told me something that really touches my heart..im sure he's not sweet talking me coz i can sense he's sincerity...his words made me cry..i feel bad coz..he's working today..and i woke him up at 9.00 just to ask for a break...instant replied..which includes phone calls..he called me so that he could explain the truth...at first..due to ego..i refuse to replied his message..but im not that egoistic..so i actually replied..asking him to tell me everything about it..but still i was mad..and i still didnt pick up the phone calls..after school at 4.00 sharp..he called me..explaining to me..and i feel that i was too fast to judge and too fast to conclude...i should have listen to both party before deciding what to do next...haiz..if only i could turn back the clock..i will rephrase my sentenced...when i told him i feel bad coz i disturb his sleep..he replied..."No big deal. U r more important to me."he even send me this message that actually made me smile...when im still in tears..."Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry. Im sorry. I love u. I love u. I love u. Muax. Muax Muax. Muax. Muax. Muax.Muax. Muax."this is what he send me at frienster when he couldnt get tru' me...it was send at 12 plus..."baby, im sorry for wat i have done to u. i don expect things to turn out this way. i hope u can forgive me. i really love u with all my heart. u have been there for me all the time. u give me happiness and the appreciation tat i have long wait... pls don leave me.. i swear to u i never cheat u seh.. pls trust me n give me a chance to explain myself k."hmmm..i dunno la..im confused on what to do..i think..i'll just leave this topic to fade away...
And i left my pen at 20:29
