Sunday, November 04, 2007
bullshit..
yes!
i feel like shit!
my godness..
it hurts a lot..
i feel like such a fool..
and all i need now is for him to tell the whole lot of truth..
i need an explanation..
i hate to say this..
but im starting to hate myself and i feel like there's no point of living..
i know im dumb for saying that..
but its just how i feel..
i need him to give me the assurance so that i wont feel so bad..
i've been crying alot..
yees..
a lot i must say..
i dunno why im feeling so bad..
its like..
i've never been this weak before..
and how i wish im backk to my old self that is much much stronger that who i am now..
it sucks...
BADLY!
where the hell is this guy?
im sick of waiting..
the more i wait..
the more the negative things start forming in my mind..
and that again...
made me cry..
my godness..
i miss you a lot..
dont u understand?
dont tell me u dont have feelings??
everytime someone's online,
i always hope it was him..
and it always disappoint me..
cos its not u..
i wonder how long will this last..
all i know is just that..
i want it to end as soon as possible..
cos i cant stand it already..
now..
im starting to regret knowing u..
im sorry...
And i left my pen at 22:38